I?m going to do it. It?ll be a bit provoking I guess, but very apart, very unique. I?m going to make my suicidal collage of art. Only an utterly mad person, like I am, ld have come with a sick idea to make a collage of poisonous and deadly pills.
Firstly, I need to go by a mirror. I love mirrors, not because of my appearance in it, just because they are so beautiful. The idea of my collage on a mirror appears warm and comforting to me. Then I need to find the most beautiful and most suicidal pills to glue on it. I have to find a beautiful theme to glue them in a beautiful form. I?ve already got the perfect title for it. I?m sure the Methods File can help me find good medication.
I?m just afraid of the reactions of outsiders.
I?ve been interested in lucid dreaming for a lot of years, because it may be a good method for me to get things done, since I am sedated all the time anyway. I already can, very mildly though, self-hypnotise. Yesterday, I read something very interesting. That you can do REM meditation to give yourself a writing task whilst lucid dreaming, so you can write and proofread in your mind. Actually, I think I am lucid dreaming a lot because I?m falling in a lot of black holes a day and every time I wake up in a state of shock when I hear a noise. Like the doorbell rings, the TV plays a noise, the phone rings. My mobile plays the tune of the flinstones, it doesn?t wake me, it hypnotizes me. My mobile alarm hypnotizes me as well and that is quite annoying.
I don?t know if any of you have noticed this, but I hypnotise myself almost all day. For example, I am always hypnotised as I blog. Really. I am not making this up.