My winamp is full of children pop music, baby songs as well, such as Twinkle Twinkle Little Star (my favourite song since I was a kid) and I?m a little teapot. I downloaded the pop ones for my little brothers (Roebi 9, Ilya 7 and Ira 18 months) and the baby songs when I was pregnant and dreaming away. Farther away I mean. These are amongst all of my other songs, and when everything plays at random, once in a while such a song pops up. They are so beautiful that if you are a lost romantic like me, you can?t possibly not love them. They hold a lot of truth in their simple lyrics, it?s nice to hear all sensible things out of a child?s mouth.
But I don?t feel like it, fuck winamp, fuck the electricity guy, fuck Bart. Fuck myself. What is wrong with me?
I should be getting sleep as my home delivered shopping are coming early in the morning. I prey I hear my mobile alarm this time. Because I took another halve pill right now.
I don?t want to go to sleep just yet because my house feels messed up and I haven?t been able to do anything tonight. I haven?t even looked where to subscribe for Miss Internet World. There?s no harm in me trying, right?