I can cry? I am so sad? because? last year these idiots got me so bitter. I moved on from that very much, the threats of lawyers and lawsuits have broken me inside.
I have a sore head and I?m crying the hell out of me to feel better.
They have broken the unthinkable inside of me, they broke the dawn in my heart where a river of blood streams now. I have dealt with it the, seen the circumstance I think I?ve dealt with it pretty good. But this something I can never forgive them, I?ve been too deranged for hat. My heart has no warranty, the damage has been too heavy to be repaired. I could never accept their apologies, if they would ever decide to be so human to apologize.
It makes me bitter and I know it and that?s not good. Just imagine how I felt and still feel about all that. I don?t think other girls of my age, actually nobody at all, have been through something this offensive and humiliating towards your own personality.
You can compare it to an attack on your life, they killed the people in my head.
Imagine! They didn?t like what and how I wrote in my journal, so the decided to sue me. I?m grateful that it didn?t come to that. Though I would have loved to fight justice for freedom of speech.
I?m nagging, I?m sorry. But it hurts so much.
I want a boyfriend to protect me. But I?m not looking ? and I should be ? but I?m toned of Bart that I?m not looking. But I need one so much.
You know, in May I forced myself into finding one on the chat. I was surprised of myself but I had found one in days. I will never again get one so fast. Sex was the only thing it was about. I want a real boyfriend, but I don?t feel like looking for him.