I have a huge bump on my forehead. This morning I lost my balance ? like I do a lot ? and I bumped my head against the washbasin. And the bump swelled a lot.
I shouldn?t always take advice. I should more like take my own advice. I don?t have any advice for myself right now because I am too fatigued, too groggy, too exhausted to provide myself with any advice. My physiotherapist reckons I should take three halve pills a day and just get to bed early and sleep a little longer. Fuck that! Goddamn, I?m not going to sleep my life away. I don?t want that, not even if that means I have to bear some pain. I can take a lot, I got a high pain boundary.
Do you know that irritable feeling you have when dozing in. you fall in an endless black hole or in deep water, and this shockingly wakes you immediately. Well, I feel like this all the time when groggy. It?s away. I don?t have to be sleeping to feel it.
I feel a little bit a stranger in my own body. I wonder about myself. I worry about myself. I?m acting all weird (meaning I?m thinking weird) and I can?t figure out what?s wrong.
I think, gosh I do think, that if I write a minute longer I?m going to instantly die.
What? wrong with me