I was acting like it?s a weekend and I have absolutely nothing to do with the rest of my life. Okay, it is Sunday and today I have like nothing to do. But still, I better should have been doing more useful with my time than ending up worrying and being bothered by people I usually ignore. I?ve installed an upgrade of ICQ and you know the thing about AIM that?s better, is that it?s readable for blind people on their accessible computers. I find that really a great achievement, MSN is also equipped to be used by blind people, ICQ software on the other hand isn?t accessible for a Braille reader. So that should be improved. However, ICQ has the most features and it doesn?t take a lot of space when it?s on your desktop.
While I was testing, I chatted with someone who is mad at me because I don?t chat with him anymore. I?m sorry that I?m not someone who likes everybody else. I don?t think, and it?s not my goal either, that everybody likes me. I mean, I know he doesn?t even like me for real. He asked if I knew who he was. I said yeah you?re one of the people that are mad at me because I don?t chat back. He said that he wasn?t the only one. He didn?t say his name though.
I know I don?t like to know a lot of people, because it gets confusing. I like statistically significant abnormal people. People kind of like me. Not too much, because I?m a bit extreme. I seem childish, na?ve, whatever really, I don?t care anymore what normal people think of me. I?m special to myself. Maybe it?s wrong of me that I live in this dream world of mine and that I get all excited about it. I shouldn?t forget about the real world. Screw the real world, this one is better. It?s not because I sit in front of my computer all day that I have no business with the real world. I do. And I hate it. It?s so unfair! My world is warm and loving.
Or really, am I fanatically driving myself crazy here?