In my young life I haven’t been set a lot of boundaries or limitations, or whatever you wish to call it, and I do believe that to be good at some level. Only, it’s that I never know where to stop, I need to be in control of everything as much as possible, up to the extreme really.
Perhaps you all think a babywish has got nothing to do with that, but to a certain extent it has. I mean, mainly I want a baby for two reasons only.
Obviously, wanting a baby, is a rather strong desire, and such a desire can happen to anyone really, so if it weren’t me, I might have had that desire anyway.
Another thing I mean to say, is that I feel an urge, a strong need, to love a baby that’s mine. This is something I agree I’d better not have. I need that because I want to feel useful and until now I have achieved nothing in my life - except for being me, and that’s not such a hard thing to do - so, for myself, motherhood is something I want to achieve. And the more people fight me against my wish, the more I wish it. It’s a rule of thumb by kids, still many people don’t get that point. Don’t get me wrong here, I don’t mind needing it.
But I don’t sleep with anyone, I do meet my own demands, you know? And my reasons for wanting to raise a kid, absolutely are generous. I especially don’t want a history of alcolics running in his DNA, my dad was a drunk and I didn’t really enjoy being the daughter of a drunk. I want a baby to love, and not as a means to accomplish other things, like bonding with a guy, moving out or whatever left. Feeling useful is no crime.
I found an adorable baby name I love and just know you’ll love too. It’s unisex (so I would have to find a second name yet), so that makes it prettty easy for me. It’s three letters and Hawaiian.
Curiously, I didn’t find your first reason to be any personal reason at all as it merely says “I want it because I’m a woman” and that’s a reason of Mother Nature, not yours… though it might be a reason indeed.
Your second reason interestingly mixes two different things, which can both be seen as separate and independent reasons.
The first is being useful, having a life with a purpose and reaching achievements. This is achievable through many ways, personal, professional, and many others more. It touches our desire to extend ourselves into what we do, and leave something behind, that will possibly survive us beyond death.
The second is the need to give love. To offer the immense well of affection and care, because we are human beings, and as such we are mammals which all share that feature, need and capability.
the desire is to cherish and love, and it’s not personal because if i weren’t me, i’d have that desire too
the second is to achieve being a mom
on a pro level, i want to publish my book